Rough Waters

I have a problem.

I'm currently skipping my senior thesis class right now because I didn't do the work I was supposed to for today, and I don't want to talk to my TA again about what I didn't do.

The semester is almost halfway over and I have nothing to show for it.

I honestly have no idea what I'm doing. I've never written a thesis before, and only like two research papers (maybe) in my field. I'm just really frustrated because I feel like my TA hasn't done a good job of explaining how the hell to do this. I want to do well; I want to write an awesome report. I want it to be insightful and useful. But at the moment I'm frozen with anxiety over perfecting a sentence.

I keep changing the direction I want to go in. Probably because I've done so little research. It's hard for me to set aside so much time to read when I feel like what I'm reading isn't relevant.

I don't know what I'm doing, and I think I need someone other than my TA to help guide me. Perhaps another grad student? I know a few now and they all seem cool.

I don't know what to do moving forward, honestly.

Anyway, if you read through all of this, thanks I guess.